Happy birthday

Eh, in 20 minutes' time it'll be February 20th.

Your birthday.
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16 years ago, a great person was born on this one particular date. And I'm glad to have gotten the chance to meet and befriend that person. 

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Happy birthday, kawan.

I miss you.

BASiS

I did a lot of posts these last few days. I suppose it's because I'm emotionally disrupted as of now and I'm trying to let go of my feelings.

I mean, It's only February. The second month of my Form 4 life. And I've been through so much.

Can I just roll myself in my comfortable blanket and just, idk, rest? For 6 years maybe?

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Shifting out of jess was one thing, and now I'm going to be out of basis too. That's another thing.

True, two weeks may look like it's a short time. But believe me, in that 2 weeks of a 'short time', I've learned so much. I met these amazing humans who have succeeded in planting their names in my heart. I know how to stand up on my own two legs. I came to trusting people. I learned the value of friendship.

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Remember the sudu dalam botol? We had to use our teeth to hold the rope. Before the game, the seniors and all the group leaders / assistants were debating about which gender was better, guys or girls? Of course, girls won. Guys were so busy shouting and giving out orders to each other that their journey to the botol became chaotic. I pitied the group leader tho.

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Hey, remember the time when us Uranium girls had to clean the toilet on the first floor? Yaya and I were shrieking because we had to pull that pile of..... hair? out. She was claiming that the transparent plastic gloves we were using were all but waterproof. I added her point by exaggerating about how I can feel something gooey under my nails. Meanwhile, Syazwina was being very productive by scrubbing the shower cubicles vigorously. She was not only scrubbing the floor, but the walls as well. And Munirah cleaned the mirror, whereas kak Shaheerah and this other senior cleaned the sinks using a toothbrush they found. And then someone found maggots. A complete ew moment. However bad things looked like, we were all having so much fun, even if our tasks were to clean clean clean.

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Remember Zombie Attack? I don't think I'll ever forget the way we strategised and planned things out. In the end, forget all the strategies. We just entered the hall and screamed 'Aisyah!' repeatedly when the 'zombies' aka seniors aka facilitators were messing around. They kept on saying, 'Tunduk dik! Tunduk tunduk!', 'Kalau tunduk, Aisyah datang!', 'Tak payah panggil Aisyah, dia dah tinggalkan korang lah!'. It all ended finally, and this one senior guy opened the blindfold for me. And yes, we won.

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Before Zombie Attack. We in our group, played this thing called 'Concentration Game' or something. Aisyah lose a number of times, and she had to go all the way to the first floor of a faraway academic block just to throw a small rubbish as a punishment for losing. There were also forfeits in the form of shouting, 'I love you, abang xxxxx' and 'I am cute! Will you please marry me???' and 'You are super ugly!'. The worst kind of punishment being that the loser had to go to the PA system, and exclaimed to all; 'Group korang semua bosan! Group sana je best!!'. Group '''sana''' being our group, of course. All the forfeits were set up by the KP. For the final round, he said that whoever loses would have to treat all 13 members of the group, and guess who twisted his tongue at the last minute? The KP himself. :)

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Here I am, admitting this out loud. Yes. There WAS something going on before the election for PKB. Long story short, it was me who twisted things up. I campaigned my heart and soul out so that Aisyah became the PKB, and she finally did catch hold of the position. Azmiera said I was the 'punca' and all. And that's about it. I do not wish to elaborate the story here. I am, however, ashamed but also proud of myself for that. :3

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So many things to be reminisced about. But most of all, I'll try my best to never forget my newfound mates. Members of Group 7, to be exact. Datin Mainmun, Datuk Jat, DK, Aini, Atan, Bos Anaqi, Khai, Nazmeee, Emran, Khaireen, Wani, Ajiq aka the one who burned his hand, Athras. I'm so sorry about the one last member.... I remember your face, but I can't recall your name. I'm sorry. I really am. 

To be honest, the first nine meant a lot to me. The others, too, impacted my life in ways that you can never imagine, but the first nine were some of the closest to me while I was there. 

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Then there's the CNY holidays. I'm not sure how, or why, but I suddenly have this closest friendships with AWE and also MSN. The least expected people in my people........ Suddenly became my closest ones. We text and chat with each other every single day of the week.... Until they set off to asrama, that is. :(((

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Idk why, but I have this sort of sad-ish dissapointed-ish feeling inside me when they told me they have to go back to asarama. It's hard to explain. Letting go of those decent friendships I've obtained in the period of two weeks, it doesn't seem legit. It's like, I want to drag them over to jess and let them study there, together with me. And I don't only mean the two of them, I mean all of basis' form 4 students as well. Especially those who I've gotten clicked with. Almost all of them, I suppose. 

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Ah, well. Life must go on.
I'll just list your names in my dua', and hopefully you guys'll do the same.
''Moga persahabatan kita kekal sampai jannah :')'' InsyaAllah.
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Thanks. For everything. I love you guys, and I'll be sure as heck to miss y'all.



I don't care if you see me being all blues-ish, and decide to joke about it later. Because you'll never understand how I feel.

:')

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You told me you cried watching the first video........

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Two words; Thanks kawan.

I'll never be able to forget you. :]

It hurts me twice as much to be talking about BASiS... As if I didn't know that I was shifting all along. My friends were all contacting me, asking me about  Pengakap, and when are we supposed to be back at school, and what class am I in, and prefects' interview etc etc. I answered them all with answers that I'd definitely give if I were to still stay there. It's like I've given them false hopes, when in reality, I know they'd murder me if they know I won't be there in aspuri by Sunday.
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And tomorrow's Sunday.

AWEBMN

An amazing friend.

That's you. 

Eventhough we befriended each other in less than a month, you know more about me than a number of my friends.

Thanks for listening to my rantings, ramblings, as well as crappings. I owe you big. 

And y'know what? The phone call you made that night, asking me to sleep early, telling me 'tak elok tidur lambat'......... It's, idk how to say this, but I was touched. I was really, really touched.

You understood me, that's the reason why we had that longest phone call in history. I was feeling very sad when DK said those things to me (remember? She was telling me about what Kak Zima asked her), mainly because I loath leaving BASiS. Eh no, I hate leaving you and all the others there. You guys were so precious to me.

(Amboi jiwang :b)

So anyway, thanks for wasting your time to share stories and experiences with me, I appreciate it all. You were so protective when I told you about the Valentine partner thing, and also when I told you about when the guy who was once my best friend expressed his feelings and all.

You are a sweet person, and I find it weird that I'm confessing this out loud. Ah, well. 

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Time to step into reality; you're going back to asrama tomorrow. 

It makes me sad profusely, I wish I could just drag you over to jess so we could be deskmates and all, like how we planned. I wish I could drag BASiS' aspura and ad aspuri over to jess so that I get to go to your house during outings, just like what we planned.

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I'll miss you, Datin Maimun, bos Anaqi aka sahabat, Datuk Jat, DK, 'Ainin', Atan and frankly, everyone there. (Even if Anaqi frequently cusses whenever he's talking about me -..-)

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I hope you won't forget me. Things may be awkward between us in the future, but I need you to let the memory of us being friends stay in your mind forever. Okay? 

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Ps; I still owe you a McD meal, and you need to treat me Secret Recipe with your 'duit tentera' aka RM1200. :]