BASiS

I did a lot of posts these last few days. I suppose it's because I'm emotionally disrupted as of now and I'm trying to let go of my feelings.

I mean, It's only February. The second month of my Form 4 life. And I've been through so much.

Can I just roll myself in my comfortable blanket and just, idk, rest? For 6 years maybe?

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Shifting out of jess was one thing, and now I'm going to be out of basis too. That's another thing.

True, two weeks may look like it's a short time. But believe me, in that 2 weeks of a 'short time', I've learned so much. I met these amazing humans who have succeeded in planting their names in my heart. I know how to stand up on my own two legs. I came to trusting people. I learned the value of friendship.

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Remember the sudu dalam botol? We had to use our teeth to hold the rope. Before the game, the seniors and all the group leaders / assistants were debating about which gender was better, guys or girls? Of course, girls won. Guys were so busy shouting and giving out orders to each other that their journey to the botol became chaotic. I pitied the group leader tho.

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Hey, remember the time when us Uranium girls had to clean the toilet on the first floor? Yaya and I were shrieking because we had to pull that pile of..... hair? out. She was claiming that the transparent plastic gloves we were using were all but waterproof. I added her point by exaggerating about how I can feel something gooey under my nails. Meanwhile, Syazwina was being very productive by scrubbing the shower cubicles vigorously. She was not only scrubbing the floor, but the walls as well. And Munirah cleaned the mirror, whereas kak Shaheerah and this other senior cleaned the sinks using a toothbrush they found. And then someone found maggots. A complete ew moment. However bad things looked like, we were all having so much fun, even if our tasks were to clean clean clean.

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Remember Zombie Attack? I don't think I'll ever forget the way we strategised and planned things out. In the end, forget all the strategies. We just entered the hall and screamed 'Aisyah!' repeatedly when the 'zombies' aka seniors aka facilitators were messing around. They kept on saying, 'Tunduk dik! Tunduk tunduk!', 'Kalau tunduk, Aisyah datang!', 'Tak payah panggil Aisyah, dia dah tinggalkan korang lah!'. It all ended finally, and this one senior guy opened the blindfold for me. And yes, we won.

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Before Zombie Attack. We in our group, played this thing called 'Concentration Game' or something. Aisyah lose a number of times, and she had to go all the way to the first floor of a faraway academic block just to throw a small rubbish as a punishment for losing. There were also forfeits in the form of shouting, 'I love you, abang xxxxx' and 'I am cute! Will you please marry me???' and 'You are super ugly!'. The worst kind of punishment being that the loser had to go to the PA system, and exclaimed to all; 'Group korang semua bosan! Group sana je best!!'. Group '''sana''' being our group, of course. All the forfeits were set up by the KP. For the final round, he said that whoever loses would have to treat all 13 members of the group, and guess who twisted his tongue at the last minute? The KP himself. :)

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Here I am, admitting this out loud. Yes. There WAS something going on before the election for PKB. Long story short, it was me who twisted things up. I campaigned my heart and soul out so that Aisyah became the PKB, and she finally did catch hold of the position. Azmiera said I was the 'punca' and all. And that's about it. I do not wish to elaborate the story here. I am, however, ashamed but also proud of myself for that. :3

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So many things to be reminisced about. But most of all, I'll try my best to never forget my newfound mates. Members of Group 7, to be exact. Datin Mainmun, Datuk Jat, DK, Aini, Atan, Bos Anaqi, Khai, Nazmeee, Emran, Khaireen, Wani, Ajiq aka the one who burned his hand, Athras. I'm so sorry about the one last member.... I remember your face, but I can't recall your name. I'm sorry. I really am. 

To be honest, the first nine meant a lot to me. The others, too, impacted my life in ways that you can never imagine, but the first nine were some of the closest to me while I was there. 

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Then there's the CNY holidays. I'm not sure how, or why, but I suddenly have this closest friendships with AWE and also MSN. The least expected people in my people........ Suddenly became my closest ones. We text and chat with each other every single day of the week.... Until they set off to asrama, that is. :(((

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Idk why, but I have this sort of sad-ish dissapointed-ish feeling inside me when they told me they have to go back to asarama. It's hard to explain. Letting go of those decent friendships I've obtained in the period of two weeks, it doesn't seem legit. It's like, I want to drag them over to jess and let them study there, together with me. And I don't only mean the two of them, I mean all of basis' form 4 students as well. Especially those who I've gotten clicked with. Almost all of them, I suppose. 

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Ah, well. Life must go on.
I'll just list your names in my dua', and hopefully you guys'll do the same.
''Moga persahabatan kita kekal sampai jannah :')'' InsyaAllah.
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Thanks. For everything. I love you guys, and I'll be sure as heck to miss y'all.



I don't care if you see me being all blues-ish, and decide to joke about it later. Because you'll never understand how I feel.