kawad bsmm

I took the position as the president of Jalan Empat's Red Crescent Youth in times of need and desperation. During our mid-term examination, eventhough the former president left the unit with nothing whatsoever prepared.

No, ladies and gentlemen, I am not blaming him for whatever reasons he may have that's forced him to just drop the position, there and then.

And no, ladies and gentlemen, I am not pointing my index finger to anyone who suggested me or even has anything to do with my replacing him in such sudden notice.

I believe in responsibility and agility while doing work. And not put blames on other people should things go wrong.

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So anyway.

After exam, school was off for 2 weeks before it opened again to meet up with the school's Sports Day.

We only had 5 friggin days left to practice everything for kawad, and with touches of Puan J's scoldings towards En. A and Pn. F, Ibrahim and I managed to collaborate even though I honestly felt like beheading him at that time. (Note that Pn. J's anger towards the two teachers was released out on us, ie, Ibrahim and me, infront of 5 Karisma. The scoldings and shoutings lasted for a whole hour, tqvm.) *grimaced

We had to run up and down to find both En. A and Pn. F and we discussed shit. Long story short, we finally managed to get the formation done in just 2 days ((1 day = 2 hours' practise)), which means we accomplished the almost impossible in merely 4 hours' time. *grins

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Training in the afternoons. ***I'm the girl in the blue hijab, obviously***

BSMM parade, here we come! ((Ignore the act of which the president is glancing at her shoes))

My beloved juniors. They have been wonderful teammates :))

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Click here for the video of us performing kawad during Sports Day; enjoy!

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Before ending this post, I would like to dedicate appreciations to our main coordinator of this whole project, who else but our very own Commander, Ibrahim!

(sorry I couldn't find a more decent photo to be put here, he as a whole can never fit into the ''decent'' category. :b No offence, Ib.)

Up next would be our Vice Commander, Amir! (Is there such a thing as a vice commander though)

(This is the best I can do, even if it isn't the most acceptable one. I know how ya feel, readers. -__- Sorry anyway.) 

So.

Thanks to you guys, this whole kawad thing has been such a wonderful eye-opener to me. Thanks as well to all those that have been so amazing to sacrifice your afternoons for a whole week, and this is respectably dedicated to all the kawad kaki members. (Even if our commander went crazy and practically tortured y'all at the school field.) Finally, I really feel the need to say this, thanks to Pn. J for doing what you did, cause if it wasn't for you, this whole thing wouldn't have happened. 

You are all the best of the best!

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Friends

Today, as per usual after school I hanged out at the library with Ajiq and Irfan. 

We were talking and joking quite a lot, and suddenly our conversation drifted off to the time when I shifted to Banting. 

Me : Agak2 nanti Zarifah patah balik tak?

Irfan : Entah tapi nama dia dah kena delete dalam sistem.

Me : Lol baru seminggu weh. Habis tu aku dulu pun kena delete cepat2 ke?

Irfan : Eh tak lah, kau punya Haziq dengan Khairina tak bagi delete.

Me : Kenapa?

Irfan : Sebab dia orang kata nanti rindu ke apa entah, macam tu lah.

Haziq : Takdelah, kitorang dulu cakap kalau kau takde, nanti rindu, atleast dapat tengok muka pun jadilah.

Me : Wow. Serious? Sayang jugak eh korang kat aku ni haa~

Haziq : *serious face* Tahu pun kau.

Me : Betul ke kau ni?

Haziq : Iye betul.

Then I'm not sure when this came along, but it was one of the things that we discussed;

Irfan : Eeee, dulu masa dia pergi orang nangis kot untuk dia.

Me : Yeke? Yang aku tahu Haziq, Zafira je.

Irfan : Ada, Khai pun nangis gak.

Me : Eh tak lah, dia nangis time aku balik je. Time pergi tak de lah.

Irfan : Ada, dia sedih kot time tu. Mungkin dia nangis time dah balik kot.

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Rabiatul Aqillah. Egoistic from the outside. 

But inside all the time I was like, 

As well as;

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There. My ego bursted.

Now, I need y'all to simply

Because this type of post, this revelation of me loving you guys, it ain't happening again, not in the shortest time frame anyway.

xx

Alhamdulillah :-)

Ya Allah tiba2 teringat pula my last day at school before Banting. 

Wani came running after me and hugged me. Dekat sebelah tangga Putra.
Then Danial Hazeem in the class was sad and he gave me a keychain.
Khairina pun sedih, and Haziq and Luqmanul persuaded me to not accept the offer.
Then Zafira gave me a letter and a panda bear.
I promised Aisyah that I would invite all of our friends for my sister's upcoming wedding.
And lots of people signed on the Aedes board for me.
Teacher Halimah and all gave me enough lectures to make my ears bleed because they wanted to prevent me from going so bad.
Then at FB's private messenger, my friends and I were all but being so blues and sad and stuff.
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Oh dear God. Alhamdulillah for showing me the right path and for guiding me towards the correct way all my life. My going back to Jalan Empat was sincerely one of the truest step I've ever made so far, thanks to You. Now I'm once again surrounded by my small but comforting circle of friends and familiar environment.

Rererereality

Guy A

Oh wow you hate the way I conduct things. You hate the way how everything turn out to be.

Honestly, do you think I need all this rn?

How sure are you that things might be better if it were you who had to be the club president in times of desperation?

I received that friggin position during the half-term exam, for God's sake. Three weeks of exam, then it was straight to the two weeks of holiday. Seriously, it it were you, could you have done anything to make things better for our school's RCY club? Would you?

At least I have the courtesy to drag about 20 members to this National-level camp. And have my heart cut out at being told to do this and that for your ''Mama''. While you, you were so busy checking in your participation to that camp elsewhere.

And now, the first meeting under my conduct, did you really expect it to be extremely flawless? Have you forgotten that I was actually tasking a Form 5 guy's responsibilities? 

And you were mad because I chose that junior guy to be the one who helped me shout things. Did you know why? It was because of you. You were so busy demanding to everyone that I didn't have a loud enough voice for them all to hear. What do you expect? Do you wish me to suddenly have this magic that can make my voice louder? Hello, my fcking voice is fcking slow. I can't change that. Just like you, not abling to change your lousy attitude, I guess. 

Guy B

You. One of the people I least expected bullshits from. I trusted you, I really did. But you chose to stab me on the head, upfront, using your hurtful words. You slashed me. 

Your line.... I'll never let that out of my mind. Even if I've forgiven you at some point later, I don't think it'll ever escape my soul.

You betrayed me. Remember that time when I stood up for you, and you felt so touched? No?

You complained about things, I swallowed that up. You boasted how easy the papers were, despite me claiming that I was sick and that the questions looked awfully misplaced, I still liked you. You jerked up, I tolerated with that. So why is it that in my times of need, you were not there, rooting for me as how you said you would?

Where's this '''friendship''' thing that we always talked about?

I remember you confessing, how jealous you were of me and shit.

Do you honestly think I care about all of these things I am achieving if it wasn't for you guys to be proud of me? So that you can just go up and out, and point at me and tell people that I am your friend, without any shame. But I guess I need not have tried at all in the first place. 

Thanks for showing me how reality really is.

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I guess I just can't trust people too much now. Everyone'll hurt us at some point in our lives. It's just inevitable.

HOLIDAYS

My half-term, 2 weeks holidays.
It had been nicely spent. I participated in a National level camp over in Putrajaya for four days. Then I spent two days sleeping and resting, then the second week of my holidays I had a three hour practise of Gamelan each day. That was the summarized version of it.
However, there are two days of which that I would like to highlight out, because to me they were somewhat unique and unexpected.
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Wednesday ((second week)); Gamelan practise. Again. Then it was an outing with our very own Mr. Cekodok. Initially, I zero enthusiasm to go out with this guy on that particular day. However, since he was so nice and seemingly enthusiastic about our mini reunion, I decided to ditch my ego and insisted that my mom had to send me to Kajang.
I'll tell you what, it was so awkward for me to look at him from where we met; inside the Watsons' store. After 5 years of not seeing each other, he really differed. I mean, he was much taller than what I remembered, and he had developed a tough torso.
K, at first, the awkwardness between us was so intense that I couldn't look at his face whenever I spoke to him. Yes, it was that bad. He then helped me chose an orange-flavoured Scott's Emulsion thingy, and afterwards we decided to go to the Food Court and have lunch. Well, I did. He only had a drink because apparently, he ate before our meeting.
Then...... We were left dumbfounded. We couldn't decide what to do ((note that the outing happened in Kajang and there really was nothing interesting over there)). Soooo then we walked around in a bookshop in Metro Plaza aimlessly, talking about random stuff.
Then, for some reason, he became distinct and decided that it was a boring outing and that he wanted to go home asap. And of course I couldn't let him do that, since my mom told me to call her about half an hour earlier than when she was supposed to pick me up. So I told him that, and I was at the verge of begging him to wait for another 30 minutes when he finally said okay.
To fill in the remaining minutes, he decided to lead the way over to Chatime and we settled at a table in the corner with our drinks.
Then we talked and caught up with what had been happening in each other's lives since we 'seperated' during standard 6. And before we knew it, it was already 4 o'clock. By that time, our discussion had turned out to be relaxing and enjoyable, so he asked me to call my mom and ask her to fetch me at 5 instead. And yes, my mom approved. Hence, another hour spent, us talking about random things.

This was as an outing as dull as could be, I'll admit. But idky, for me it was fun as well as stress relieving.
And............ he actually agreed with that. Oh wow.

After this outing, we almost instantly became close like how we would have been should that 'seperation' didn't occur 5 years ago. *purses lips
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Thursday ((second week)); Zafira and I went out to Midvalley after Gamelan practise. The night before this day was chaotic, yes. Finally, we settled to just go together without any 'bodyguard'. It was just the two of us, both being independent for the first time.
So anyway, us both finally arrived at Midvalley by two and went straight to the cinemas to buy tickets. Upon arriving, we nearly changed our mind because the line was so long, it's even longer than what you're imagining right now.

But then came these humans who offered to sell movie tickets to us, which coincidentally were the exact same movie that we planned to watch. What bit of luck kan kan kan? :p

Anyway. Then we ate. Using hands. In MidValley, the land where people actually competed to grasp all those elite and modern lifestyle craps with one another. Oh and btw, a mineral bottle costed RM2.50. And my lunch, consisting of  rice, a chicken breast and some pumpkin thingy, was RM 7. Which, if you do not share the same logic as I, is expensive. No, make that super expensive. A friggin simple lunch, form RM10?  I have to say, the prices set were pure bullshit. 

Then came the movie. Zafira crapped so much during the show and guessed the appearance of some duyung lady, and how because of that the movie almost portrayed an Indonesian drama. Oh, she also said that the hero should be friends with the large bird because the hero helped the large bird to chase away the crazy lions. And I was like 'kau ingat ni cerita kartun ke woi?'

Ah, I don't expect you to understand that. They're all inside jokes I guess. Nevertheless, you should know that we had fun. I had fun. :)
So anyway, afterwards we got lost while trying to find our way to the ktm station. How we ran and jogged. Do know that we supposedly had to arrive at Kajang by a quarter past 6, and by that time it was already 6.20-ish. Long story short, we finally reached Kajang by 7.
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Ok, so those are the highlights. I don't really care if you didn't enjoy them anyway . Adios.
xx

Quotes

''Well, at least there's still some awesome friends left like Rabi the Sakai Laut, Shawarma Sharmin, Khairina the Hyena, Zafirahhh~~''

''having such crazy friends like them makes my day happier and happier :))''

Aww Ajiq, that's adowablezzz :3