Rezolutionz.

2011 is coming close to the end. Such shame, since I liked this year better than the couple of years behind. But I ain't reminiscing now, and I'm positive that I cherished and treasured beautiful moments that occurred throughout this year. :')

Anyway, this year I started off with a few resolutions, so let's see what I've achieved up to date;

1. Build some self-confidence.

2. Patch all the holes in my life yg aku dah purposely 'poke' time form 1 dulu. And I'm telling you, there's ALOT to cover up. o.O

3. Jadi active dlm Koko.

4. Participate in atleast ONE event in Sports Day.

5. Tukar personality, banyak2 bersabar and gang up dengan sume orang.

6. Gain my confidence in speaking other languages, selain BM, obviously. Cause I've wasted enough, and absolutely ENOUGH this year.

I should think that those are about it. Alhamdulillah.
2012 is approaching babeyh. Thus, here are some new resolutions I've thought about in a huge attempt to improve myself for a better future. Brace yourself. :-B

1. Improve myself. How I'm planning to do this, is for me to know and for you to never find out. xD
2. Score straight A's for PMR.
3. Be more active in sports and my Koko stuff. Annnd get an A for my Koko mark.
4. Strive to be a better friend and family member.
5. Give my specs undivided attention and not ruin them for at least a year.
6. Be a better emcee. *sigh
7. Get ONLY number 1, 2 or 3 for the placings in class. 

There. I reckon seven is enough, as I do realize I'm not some kind of miracle achiever. So Imma climb all the way up by myself. Wish me luck, and pray fer me. I'd appreciate that.
xx.

Okay. Nothing much has happened since my last post. However, I am rather unsatisfied with the latest class placings as they 'renovated' everything. So now;

I am officially in 3 Proaktif. D:

I wish things wouldn't change, because I've come to accept my fellow 2 Optimist's mates as one big family. But life must go on. And my partner-to-be is Shallu. :) Atleast that's one thing similar.

Also, I've come to my senses that I am now a candidate of 2012's PMR. Anxious, yes, but I'm excited as well. The latter more so the the first. 'Tis odd, undeniable. But I guess I'm just as ludicrous and awesome as always. Whatever.

Anyway.

Tomorrow's my last tuition class for December, and I've been sitting with Queenie, Sharvina, Celine and Ching Yi from start till the end. Ain't eager to decide who to sit with next year, since they are all going during the weekdays. 

But no worries, I tend to make friends real fast if I want to. A useful skill passed on from my mother to me, Alhamdulillah. Talking about friends, here is a shoutout answer to those who have been..... pestering me with questions like who's my best friend and am I close to that guy over there or even he's your boyfriend isn't he or maybe I reckon that's a close girlfriend of yours? and all those that tag with them.

Guise, please.

I treat everyone of different ages and genders in equivalent ways. And I can be close to people all I like, so if you reckon everyone wants to be my close friend /sister /best friend, or whatever, so be it. Everyone's lovely in their own ways, therefore I shall confirm that I am close with them all.
Satisfied? Yes, no? Well,

:D

Happy Birthday Umi. :D

Never mind the title.
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To be honest, I don't feel any need at all to write anything here. However, it is my mother's birthday today, and so I was summoned up by an urgent desire to rant post something. I can't really see the relationship between those two, but who's to say anything about us complicated organisms?

Anyway.

As of late, I have very little things to worry about. With no activities to perform, staring at the wall is now one of my main priorities.  As far as I'm concerned, ticking off an endless list of novels books to be read could very easily be the climax of my everyday life. Other initiative  to pass the time is by watching plain Korean dramas. Well, what can I say? I'm lifeless.

I've been desperate for some entertainment, you see. So I tried a few things to take my mind off the dread. However, making a new resolution list would make me look too excited for the arrival of 2012, which I am, so to say. as there's still a good few weeks before the closure of 2011. Next, I also forced myself to do some past years' questions, but failed miserably. Undefeated, I then signed myself for some tuition classes, but somehow I met my old friends and forgot all about the initial aim. So then I tried stalking. Nehh, same old same old. New friends, old boyfriends, everything's boring.
So now I am in no hope of going back to school and pouring fairy tales to my classmates about my magical holiday. Cause it's plainly dull. And boring. And tasteless. And plain. And... You got it, right?
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Dadadada.

LIFE IS BEING CRUELLY BORING.

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Hey.... Did I mention about making next year's resolutions? Alright. I'm up for that. Kbye.

I was tagged.

This post is mainly about me and is possible to bore you till death. Brace yourself if you're up for it. If not, you may leave now and it will be none of my concern. Kthanks.

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This time around, my sister is the one who's responsible for it. 'Blood is thicker than water', or whatever, which abruptly signed this tag thing into the 'must-do' list.

So here goes;

RULES :

1.You must post these rules.

2.Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.

3.Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.

And create eleven new questions for people you tagged to answer.

4.You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them to the post.

5.Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.

6.No tag backs.

7.No stuff in the tagging section about

'You are tagged if you are reading this' you legitimately

(a.k.a really, trust, with all honesty) have to tag 11 people.

So those are 'The Rules'? Okayy, if you say so. :P

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First rule, done. Next; 11 things about me. Easy-peasy.

1. I'm a left-hander.

2. My sense of direction is weak. Very weak, to be precise.

3. I may seem confident and all, but I LOATHE giving speeches to a crowd of people. Let alone talking infront of a gazillion pairs of eyes ogling my every words and moves. *pukes

 4. Hates durian and laksa.

5. Loves thrilling rides and rollercoasters.

6. I can't have it if someone close to me beats me in something.

7. Ambition is constantly manipulating.

8. My skin tone match with a majority of colours.

9. My style varies with those who I'm texting with.

10. No make-ups.

11. A lazy cow.

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Next in list; these would be my sister's 11 questions fer me;

1. one word to describe yourself and one word to describe me.

Me - Young. You - Not so young. In one word term as you requested; old. :P
2. what is your favourite friut/s? why?

I like to eat mainly anything except for durians and pineapples. Why? Well, I hate vegetables, and people need vitamins to continue living healthily. So like it or not, I'll just have to suck it up and eat what's left of those healthy vitamin products.

By the way, caught your 'fruit' typo! Heheh.
3. if someone give you rm1000 for no reason, will you take it? and what would you do with the money?

Oh, you mean like when the government decided to shower us with RM100 each? Erm, I'd definitely take the 1k, under safety precautions of course. I'd like to invest the money for future usage, if that's okayy. :D
4. what is your favourite outdoor game? since when?

I'll have to say cycling to that. Ever since I knew how to ride one, when I was still a cute teeny-tiny little kid.
5. what is/was your first ambition?
A teacher. Obviously.

6. bilakah saat yang paling anda benci untuk menghadapinya.. (cth : terpijak nasi)

Bila kredit habis/internet slow masa kita tengah ada conversation best dengan orang.
7. bagaimanakah anda mengatasi tahap stress anda?

Melukis.
8. apakah ciri-ciri wanita atau lelaki idaman anda? (atleast 3 ciri, lebih xpa)

-Ketinggian melebihi diri ini.

-Yang boleh respect family saya.

-Kalau boleh bukan anak tunggal.
9. zaman tadika, zaman sekolah rendah, zaman sekolah menengah, atau zaman di universiti? mengapa?

Zaman sekolah rendah; takyah study walau exam penting mana pun datang menyapa.
10. senaraikan 3 langkah pemuliharaan dan pemeliharaan alam sekitar. (maaf kawan2, smgt nak exam..haha~)

-Menguatkuasakan undang-undang.

-Mengehadkan lesen pembalakan.

-Menyediakan hutan simpanan.
11. apakah yang menyebabkan anda sanggup membuang masa dan menjawab 11 soalan di atas? huhu~ btw, thanks alot!

 Sebab anda yang excited menyuruh saya menjawab ini survey~ haha.

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I did it in hope to satisfy you. Hehe okay.

 I'm done. And you're welcome.

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jawraks

Wondering what the title meant? Well, here's a hint;

1. J - Jia Yin
2. A- Aisyah
3. W - Wanie
4. R - Rabi
5. A - Aina
6. K - Khai
7. S - Sabreena

Those six peeps up there, minus me (Rabi) are awesome humans. :D

Obviously this post is going to be about them, but I won't comment much. Just some sayings here and there.

Here goes;

Jawraks, we as one went through countless hurdles throughout 2011. That is undeniable, especially remembering those epic moments, when it seemed like teachers everywhere campaigned on making us prepare for countless presentations. So here I am, dedicating my thanks to you guys for most things. even if it means witnessing me embarrass myself every now and then.

Also, you can all be annoying, yet so humorous at the same time.

Do know that I don't do cheesy stuff often, so I guess my talk pretty much ends here. Whatever.

Aisyah and Aina - My two mates from 1 Optimist. They are undeniably smart people.

Jia Yin - Hates taking pictures, let alone posing. A true genius, she got like 5 certificates for highest marks in our batch last year.

Sabreena - A sweet, delicate girl. Cute, but hates cameras too, like Jia Yin.

Wanie - A good listener, and very matured. Khai - Likes going to the toilet, a crime-in-partner sort of mate. :p

What can I say, those mentioned people up there are amazeballs that you wouldn't and couldn't find anywhere else.
Ps : Pardon my faces up there, I couldn't find an appropriate group photo of us seven to be put here.

So I guess that's it. :D

kbye.

Serabott :/

Okayy, I'm here to let mah condemned thoughts spoken. typed. whatever.

Here goes;

To someone worth a post on my Blog.

 When I'm with you, my ego abruptly inflate before bursting into a million pieces which makes me have the urge to literally poke you with a pencil (painful, okayy?). That's how bad my ego is.

Listen, I do love you, I care for you and all, but it's just that I always let the ego take over and ruin everything.

Sometimes I feel like slaughtering myself, y'know?

When you're with me, I do things that will make you feel unappreciated and useless. But when you're away, I feel this need to talk to you and everything. Geddit? No? Okay.

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'Nuff said. It's getting more cheesy each passing second.

kbyeeeeeee.

Incredulous squared

I found this thing on a friend's Facebook profile.

Btw, you might want to skip the first twenty seconds.



Here are a few comments about this video via Facebook;

-poyo plak minah ni..

-Bapak kerek minah nii !

-semua betina mmg cam tu =)

Go look at YouTube yourself, there are loads of utterly revolting comments like these made by equally utterly revolting peeps. Woops.

Heaps of them are on the guy's side. Me, I'm not going to side any party. I'm all smiley-faced witnessing this ugly drama.

Oh who am I kidding? Of course I'm siding the lady.

Those guys Samad and the annoying speaker via FM, are typical Malay guys. And they deserve hell for insulting the lady.

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FYI dude, people DO need money in this civilization. Unless you are a garbage, then money is nothing.

True, money is not everything, but do mind that everything needs money today. Oh, forget it. You wouldn't understand that simple sentence for anything in the world. Cause guys like you are dumb.

Do not call her cheap, you ass. She's not, you are. So just shut up, cause you don't even deserve to live on this planet.

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To talk about the past when the lady was in love with the guy, is beyond disgusting. IF the guy really went head over heals for the lady, then he would've tried his best to get things right. But sadly, typical Malay guys would only savour the world for sex and sex alone. Hah.

It is also flabbergastingly horrendous, saying 'ape punya perempuan la you ni' at the lady. SHE THINKS ABOUT THE FUTURE, thankyouverymuch. Guys hurling such words at a lady are undeniably blunt fullstop

Furthermore, this Samad guy is having major problems with his promises. 'Nak tukar kerja baru, majukan perniagaan'. HEH. Off those words go with the waste that went through his poophole. Woops.
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The same goes with those who cussed the lady 'baruah, betina, mata duitan, setan etc', you guys are pathetic. Make sure I never meet any of you in public, or I'll really shove some shit in your face and see how you like it. It's really infuriating to even know there are humans with such closed and vaccumed minds out there, standing up for the garbage bag. Ehm, I mean the useless guy.

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Conclusion is, she has her rights to jump over a wrecked rubbish and fly into the nice arms of a wealthier guy. The guy who can atleast savour her future, if not her.

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Huh, I guess that's pretty much it. I hate those guys. They are so unbelievable.

Ps: I struggled to prevent myself from posting mega swear words. Be thankful. K.

Incredulous

A little bit of science
There is a chemical in a girl's brain which is released only twice in her life, when she has sex, and when she breast feeds her baby. This chemical emotionally connects her to another person for the rest of her life. Guys? They only release this chemical when they bond with their children. So guys, if you think sex is a game and go around fucking as many girls as you want, remember that you will mentally mess this girl for the rest of her life. If you’re still friends afterwards then whatever, but she will always have the same feeling toward you because of this chemical.

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I bear no consequences once you finished reading this.

kbye.

Books

Before we start. I feel the need to do this; May I warn you, that this post is a long one, and is mainly about books. If you're not interested in the latter, then you may absolutely press the top right-hand-side corner box of this page. Thanks.
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So.
My sister and I are definite bookaholics. What, you want proof?

Okay, so we went to the latest bookfair which was held in Putrajaya. I don't know the exact location, but they're the buildings in which MAHA was held at. Geddit? K.

It was a Big Bad Wolf bookfair, and I love it. I lovelovelove it!

Ze books we bought; there are 34 of them with a total of only RM288! asdfghjkl unbelivable! :P

Majority of brand-new books with hardcovers are less than RM10, Twilight, New Moon, Sophie Kinsella's masterpieces and everything. Honestly, if I knew this sale was hitting in a few years' time, I'd wait and would've saved hundreds of bucks. HUNDREDS of bucks.

K.

These are some of the books that we had, ruefully, bought in the past. I'm sure if we added them all up, the total amount would be somewhere around RM1000, if not more. *le cries

However, do take mental notes that we not only think about stories, we also look up to school necessasities, thus below would be evidences of the statement.

See? Heh. Heheh.

Also, in this very post, I'd like to make dedications for my family as they supported and literally cheered for us both bookamaniacs. :B They too, are involved in readings, though not as much.

My father's, err, reading materials.

My brother's.

My eldest sister's. (She inherited a teeny tiny bit of the bookaholic gene, other than that, she's not really obsessed about reading, like my mother. Not to say that my father is a pure reading machine, but atleast he reads. Occasionally.)

My mother? She doesn't really have time for novels. She does readings, but mainly magazines and motivating stuff.

K. I'm done lecturing.

ps : thank God blogger doesn't have all those craps about word limits, I'd seriously put a bullet hole on my forehead if I have to 'kindly delete some of the contents'.

Finals

My previous result was ugly fullstop

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Finals is hovering on me now.

So here's my list of things-to-do to improvise myself. *sigh

1. No tablet twitter up until Nov 9th.  They'll be available again only after the day's Maghrib prayer is done.

2. I ain't making any kind of timetable whatsoever, cause I know I won't be bothered to obey it. Hence, I made a deal with myself to study for atleast 2 hours a day, and no slacking under any circumstances. unless for very, very crucial matters.

3. Not trusting myself on the above rule, I now forbid myself to read the books from Big Bad Wolf before the arrival of Nov 9th. Even so, I may still procrastinate. -.- Thus, if I do that then I shall have to donate those books to Aimi those in need.

4. Go through all Form 1 and Form 2 chapters for perdagangan. I am weak in kh. 'Nuff said.

5. Clear up those craps from sejarah form 1.

Finally,

6. Achieve Top 5 in class. If not Top 3. Latter more so than the first.

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Please pray for my success. :')

hectic laife

It's PMR flu season.

Us Form1's and 2's got holidays, so as to prevent packed conditions which might reduce ze candidates' focus. My class is off on Monday, Wednesday, FriFriFriday and next Tuesday. I'm lololovin' it!

However.

In the midst of the joy, reality reminds me of the agonizing truth. Our turn is up, next year is showtime, baby.

Shykes.

Gawd, my schedule's are going to be so horrendous next year. T.T COME ON, I like going to taekwondo class, please do not make me stop. I refuse to sacrifice it. Which, in any case, is impossible.

So now, I am trying to find initiatives to reschedule my messy schedule. Trying to fit everything in.

I'd like gamelan, choir, and sports. But at the same time, I'd like sometime out wiz me frenz, and celebrating birthdays too. Between chorus speaking, tuitions, extra classes, taekwondo, prefect duty, campings, the sevens, shykes and others, I'd be dead meat.

Plus my mom would like me to dedicate more time for my studies and would very much like it if I go to more than 1 tuition. :)

*shreds hair and scratching scalp with bulging eyes*

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AMC result was out today. Truth be told, it was as if someone literally beheaded me when I saw that my name was at number 172. *le cries

But then I found out that numbers don't count, its the grades that do. Our names were arranged alphabetically, since mine started with an 'R', it was no question why I was hauled so far at the back. *cue relieved gesture
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It was sad to see JESS-ians managed only the top four gradings (from behind, top four from BEHIND), since there are like, 10 of ze overall grades. :|

*le shuts mouth up

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Those joyful moments.

The part-chorus-speaking-part-choir performance is finally done. * Relieved sigh *

Earlier, I was on Haziq's blog, reading all about the chorus speaking competition from last March.

Missing those fun moments so much. We were a bunch of awesome people hanging out together. The sense of family togertheness was undeniably amazing. :)

Of course, in every happy family, there is at least one annoying member, that douchebag, one caring brother, a hippy sister, ze pain-in-the-ass little brother, a mom, and everything.

But unfortunately PMR is coming. We need to focus.

:(.

Oh well, what's passed is passed. Though we may never team as one again, those awesome bond we shared shall not be forgotten. <3

teehee.

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And my auntie asked me, 'whatever in the world is this chorus speaking thing you speak of?'

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ps: Fingers crossed that teacher won't break the team apart. I'd hate that.

Updates

So much things have been happening in my life.

The crocodile attack thing, and my lost eyeball, those times in hospital, crazy gay doctor, and the eating cereal with orange juice part.

cue goggling eyes (O_o)

Okay, kidding.

So maybe my life is not that adventrous, but it isn't exactly as normal either.

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Let's start with me finally being an emcee. I swayed to and fro with ze microphone the whole time, and of course my tudung decided it was the best time to start being obnoxious.

Got my certificate, the one teacher promised almost 85 years ago. exaggerating

Then chorus speaking, I really like the part when we are doing choir. :)

Got our uniform, which looked weird. -.- Grey long skirt, striking oversized orange shirt, grey/pink striped vest and a black bow. Yes, us awesome janitors trenders. Ntn.

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I tried the gamelan instruments, and turned out it wasn't exactly hard. Am eager to play them again soon. :)

Also, I found out that the girl I loathed has started on to liking me. No, not adorable. Freaky, indeed.

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Okay, I gotta get ready for school. *sourface*

Chorus speaking; lalalalalala

Chorus speaking is up again. One performance on October 1st. Sucks shykes.

Too tiring, classes skipped, piling homeworks, and everything. Especially now, when the finals is around the corner. I was thinking about dropping the whole thing, but the new overalls were just too tempting. Plus, this time there is part choir. Cue 'Generasiku from OAG'.

So what can I do but to practically sulk holler.



Not when the exam's near. NOOOOOOOOOOO.
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Okay, so yesterday during KH period Khairina, Jia Yin and I were reminiscing about how we met. It's really odd, thinking how we were so oblivious of each other's presence last year.
Long story short, let's just say I was a total rudeass not exactly friendly the first time. K.

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I am into stalking two bickering humans now, and I can only say they're too vulnerable. Heh.

My mate's birthday

September 11th, 1997. The day a monster was created in an evil night with deafening storms and lightnings.

Oh, who am I kidding? It's my mate, Aimi's birthday :)

Happy 14th birthday dude.

What can I say? You're the most annoying person ever, you failed, you are thoughtless and stupid. But so am I. Together we rule and whatnot :D

Point is, you understand me, you've witnessed me cry and stood by my side in the toughest of times. And those are embarassing facts, if I may say so.

No one's perfect, because of that I apologize for not being the best of friend to you like you are to me.

You are also the strongest girl I've ever met, and without you I'd fall a long long time ago.

I smurf you. That's the second and last time. :3

Those are some of us.

Happy birthday again, bitch.

A holiday to remember

Late update, I've been so busy these days.

Which brings us to -> A long long post.

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Now, I shall start with my Hari Raya celebration.

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DAY ONE

After Eid Fitr's prayers, it was of course the 'forgiving' session. Loads of pics were taken, too :3 We then went to visit my late grandfather's grave (abah's side), and proceeded on to my umi's side late grandfather's grave. Well, since both hometowns are approximately 40 minutes away from each other, I might as well say it's an easy business to be taken care of ;)



Le Famille ~

Awesome people :P

Do ignore my retarded-looking image. Focus instead on my brother's childish nature.

DAY TWO 

Transfered to umi's side of homewtown. To my much dissapproval, the total money collected was undeniably little, as 'money hunting' was not very much applied throughout the day. Distant relations did come, though. They managed to spare about RM20, and sorrowfully, that was all I got. :/

DAY THWEE

Went back home at 5:32 pm, and reached dear Kajang by 10:30pm. Five freaking hours in the car. Me, I obviously have very little experience involving travelling long distances by car. So the entire journey pretty much made my butt stiff. Whatever. Suck it up, Rabi. 

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Friday, I went outing wiz me frenz, Sharvina, Aimi, Queenie and me. We went to Sunway Pyramid by Mr Shahrum's harrier. Sharv and Queens were so paranoid about their last experience in the ice rink that they rejected skating the first minute we were in the building. Aimi was all okay about the idea of them shopping while we skate, but I wasn't too preoccupied with it. So I begged, and Aimi did, too. We were practically on the verge of kneeling, but who's to save our dignity if not ourselves, eyh? Anyway, finally they did agree to, but that was after I offered to pay the admission fees for them and stuff.

At first, Queens, Sharv and I were like ducks upon entering ze ice rink. But then I got my confidence back, eventhough a year and five months has since passed when I last skated. Once a skater, always a skater. :P

Then, Aimi and me taught them skating and Queens walked. On ice. In skating shoes. Don't ask me how she did it, she just did. After some period, Queens then did unthinkable motions. One of them was running on ice. Just imagine.

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Of course, we were laughing and having fun the whole time.

From left - me, Queenie, Sharvina and Aimi. :)

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Then, what did we watch but :



Yeah, that's right bitch. The Smurfs.

After bits of dicussion, we all agreed that it was a 7/10 rated movie. It was interesting, but the ending was expected and the whole storyline was a little too simple. Nevertheless, they are still cute, and I now heart blue petit creatures <3

Since Aimi and I ate those highly overpriced hotdogs before skating, we didn't feel very hungry. But still we decided to eat. The four of us then divided ourselves into two groups, when I chose to eat only waffles and Aimi a float. Sharv and Queens went other place to munch cause they want heavier real food.

So obviously we camwhored like nuts in A&W. Aimi bought a RM10 piece of keychain which you can easily get for a cheap RM1. And she said it was for charity and stuff, but gurrrlll. It's a little too expensive, donchiathink?

Then we went archery, it was okay.

I also spent a total of RM101 that day.

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Sunday, the house was tidied up and a lot of work was done, but it was definitely worth it. We were paid by an awesome deal by my father's business friends through duit raya ;) I was happy.

This was my baby cousin - 2 years back. ;)

It was preferably a mini open house, Aimi came and stayed until 11 pm. Such shameless mate.

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All in all, it was an enjoyable holiday. I liked it.

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School. Test results? Dare anyone ask me about that, the person will be slaughtered and their eyeballs will be poked out. In other term, dead. :)

Ciao. xx

Useless post

From Aimi :



And in response to your enthusiasm, I always high-slapped you too. Cause awkward moments could happen if I didnt't;

Aye, Aimi?

Ahhhh, us SWAGGERS ;)

Skeptical :B

Hey, hey. On here, yet again cause my brother wouldn't help me in sending an e-mail. I seriously don't know how to send one, mainly cause I've been onlining at other places which are so much more interesting than yahoo!mail whatsoever busy with school.

Don't get me wrong, I used to email my friends no problem, but nowadays even email accounts need updates and stuff. :/ Which, if you ask me, is inappropriate. No one ever goes on yahoo!mail and such anymore.

Anyway, if my brother would have just helped me, and didn't leave me alone with this tempting monitor, then I really wouldn't have had to go around strolling to opening sites and webs.

Plus, to Puan Aziah, you can blame him when I don't hand in my homework tomorrow.

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One thing about me is... *drumrolls* LOL, melodramatic much?

Anyway, there are the two main lizards which I hate; one for falling on my head when I was in standard 2, and another is for crawling on my right arm the other day :-/ You just have to create misery, don't you, lizards?

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Gosshhh, Internet is so irritating. Oh, speaking about irritating reminds me of Hiran. Here's what happened earlier in English class:

hiran/me/Pn Meriani/classmates/shallu

So, we will learn about adjectives today. Rabiatul, stand up.

*obidiently stood up*

Class, throw in a few adjectives to describe Rabiatul.

Stuffstuffstuff.

Hiran, anything about her?

Well, she's a pain in the ass if she's assisting me.

*Gawp dramatically for one nanosecond*/ Well, he is rather annoying.

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Hiran, it's your turn, stand up.

*stood up*

Class, what about him?

*practically yelling*/Annoying! Lazy!

*slows down*/Somemore... Err..

*whispers to me*/ Irresponsible. Lousy. Irritating.

Irresponsible! Lousy! Irritating!/*smugface*

Hahahahahaha -___-

TROLOLOL

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Conclusion is, they all now know how I hate him being the monitor being his assistant.

bits of confession

Ok, time to get cheesy.

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I stalked my old friends in Facebook, some really close ones. I see that they are having such new lives now. As time went by, they had replaced me and the former gang members with some new girls. Honestly, it does look awesome,v ery sweet and stuff, no denying.

 A few years back, I still remember how desperate their cries were for me to go back and stuff. But now, no more. Ah, let bygones be bygones, no?

To start off, they were these really nice bunch of people, and I wouldn't have treaded them with a single penny on this world. We laughed and cried, we were silly and we were retarded. Together we did stupid acts and noticed the whackest things. These guys were the heck of amazeballs that were hard to find, very precious gems indeed.

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This time last year, the dread of shifting still haunted me, but not so much as during the early days of my staying in JESS. I was rebellious, and hated every single thing about the new surroundings around me. My former mates and I, even if we lived in different worlds apart, we contacted, we called, we gave in efforts. But now, no more.

It stinks to think of that all, but we humans change. I loved every bit of them then, but that was before I saw them changing drastically and vice versa. And I will hold onto those I have now, I'll treasure them. This I can promise. I'll not dread over the past anymore, but those happy memories shall forever be in heart. I'm living my moment, my life. And my former mates? Well, they're off to forgetting me, too.

It hurts, yes. But I made sacrifices and I change for the better.

I chose the right way. I know I did.

Much love. And sorry, but I loved you guys, and I'll never let go of those sweet experiences.

It's time to face new things, too.

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Warned yah this was going to be cheesy

Bits of Life

Exam started last Thursday, and my Agama paper was damn ruined. You got all that instinct things in your heart and whatnot, so I just knew it went bad.

And then there was English, and History.

So on Friday were Maths and KH, both of which I had the tendency of scoring perfect B's. I'm crossing my fingers now that I'll get A's for all five subjects mainly cause I still need to live. :/

Saturday was OK. ;Long story short, there was my grandmother who would be staying at my house due to the need of foster care or something and that she decided it was the best time to move during the weekend. So my aunts and uncles mokdepokdemakitambondapakcikmahir, and those little kids imranintanimaniraizahafiy all cramped together in the living room and we broke our fast together. Ah, a mini reunion. How adorable except for the fact that those petit monsters made rubbish and spilled things and drew a whole lot of junks everywhere <3.

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I went on an old web I used to go to and chatted with some English people. There was this nice guy who's middle name I very much like, which is Fernandez :).

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Tomorrow's papers are Geography, Science and Malay Language. I could really do with some luck. Like, seriously.

Much love

I just found out another one of my friends cuts. 

Hey, I don't mean this to sound cheesy or anything, but just listen; you are beautiful and we love you. I  love you. Trust me, I've seen and dealt with people who harm themselves because of depression. And if truth be told, then I would gladly say that you and them all, deserve a better life than this. For those people who make it harder still, then fuck them bitches. They are stupid people.

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On a brighter note, I skipped tuition two nights in a row. :)

Hearts and love for Ramadhan

Puasa <3
Just here to wish all Muslims out there a very joyful fasting month ;)
Have a blast, and do know that we should really be so much more hyped up celebrating Ramadhan than Syawal. :D Jes sayin'

Oh, and to OneSpecificGuy out there;

 Dude, there's no need to be rude hokay? What's past is past. We fought, sure. But that was like, a millenium ago? pfft mate, PFFFFTTTTTTTTTTT -.- Such immature attitude.

kbye.

Momentum

July 23rd, 2011.

The moment I've been waiting for, since I entered JESS last year. True story.

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Okay, so let's just say I went through the day with much dissatisfaction. More than a year of waiting, and it was stupid. Pfft. -.-

I got to place myself in four events that day. Must you know, it was my school Sport's Day. First event was the 100 metre race, in which I managed to win a silver medal.

Nest came the 400 metre, which was when it turned out BAD. As normal, people fast-jog in this thaang. Which was what I did. Guess I don't know my own strength. I got third placing, and after the race my legs were burning.

I couldn't stabilize myself so I had to sit down. And two of my PBSM friends which had been supporting me the whole race wanted to help me but I refused. I so did not want to trouble them, and after all, I thought I could've managed the pain. No pain, no gain, yes?

But man was I wrong. I then went to the Blue House tent and sat nearby Pn Mahnun. My father kept asking whether if he should buy or do anything for me. But I was dizzy, and I felt like sleeping, which now come to think of it, was dangerous. Could've fainted while I slept. :-/

Back to my father, I shook my head all the time. Until my teacher forced me to drink some mineral water cause I looked really pale then. And like, very pale.

Aimi was there, and soon after that came Pn Fatimah. She 'babysat' me for awhile until I decided it was time to go home. What should happen to my next two events and my medals were beyond my care.

Aimi called my mom, but a minute after, my father came. I told him I wanted to go home, and he agreed.

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I was definitely touched then. A tadful of humans asked and cared about my health ect, especially my closed ones. Aimi did everything I asked of her, and my teachers and friends wouldn't let me join in any more events after that.

Thanks guys. :) Guess I took you for granted, but now I really did see the real you.

So now do know that I think and feel different of you guys, eventhough my actings are similar as before.

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:DD

Worth a shot

Since Aimi complained about my last post, Imma make a new one. So this is for you, woman.

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Mmmmm. What is there to post about? Yeap. There's nothing.

And now I look like a total idiot because of that bitch, Aimi.

Tomorrow is my school Sport's Day. I'm in for a few tracks' events. Yeah, jes' sayin'.

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God, life has been damn hectic nowadays. I don't have time for meals, for fear of being late. No time for novels and tv shows, and definitely no online whatsoever during weekdays. Not enough sleep, and everything's been done in such hurries lately, like eating, bathing, showers, homeworks. Zzz. 

Guess what? I felt like a zombie most of the time in school. Wow, surprise surprise.

And someone called me 'depressed'. Eh, no I am not, thank you very much.

Atleast, I don't think I am. :/

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Anyway, my father showed me what a melancholic person would say if he/she accidentally sat on a tack :

''Life is just like this tiny nail. Sharp... Short.. And painful.'' *exaggerated sigh*

What cool father I have, aye? ;p

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Ramadhan's cooomiiiiinngg  <3

I just love being excited. They say I am a weirdo. I get excited for almost everything. Exams, tuitions, extra curricular activities, campings, speeches, and such. Pfft. What a silly excuse to call someone weird.

Who cares anyway, Hari Sukan is tomollow :3 WEEE!

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I love my life. I don't think about problems. So there. Stop asking me why I am 'optimistic'. Indeed, I am not. I just don't think about silly things. And I hyperventilate. That 's all, yaw. :D

K, mate. See you nextime.

101 thaangs.

So here goes:

1. Name: Rabi.
2. Age: 14.

3. Zodiac sign: taurus.

4. Male or Female: F.

5. Hair color: Mix brownblack.

6. Short or tall: Shortly tall.

7. Are you ticklish: For fun, rarely. Annoy people, yeash!. :3

8. Dress or jeans: J.

9.If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be: Flyyyyy, for sure!

10.How many drugs have you done in the last three days: I’m only fourteen.

11.What did your last text message you received on your cell say and who was it from: Erm, from a girl named FN asking about Seni homework.

12.Name one thing you worry about running out of: Prepaid dalam fon laa gilaaa :D

13.Five things you would need to survive, if left alone on a deserted island: My Galaxy tab, converse sneakers, deodorant, novels…… And top-up for my phone. :D

14.What is your best physical feature: My left ear? Pfft.

15. Do you have a dog?: No.

16. What color are your bed sheets: they’re colourful.

17. Piercings: One time, earlobes. Now, no more.

18. Pepsi or Coke: Eh, I get stomachaches drinking carbonated stuff.



HAVE YOU EVER?



19.Been in an airplane: Yes

20.Do you talk to yourself : Sure do.

22.What song(s) do you sing most often in the shower: Back to December, and my school song 

23.What do you do when no one is watching: I pretend I’m real famous and there are crowds waiting for me. Dreams. Pfft.

24.First best friend: My mother’s womb. -.-

25.Would you rather die in a blaze of glory or peacefully in your sleep: hell yeah glory!

26.Who was your first crush?: Spongebob <3

27.Driven a car?: Like I said, I’m fourteen.

29.Last friend you talked to in person: Aimi

30.Do you "label" yourself: heh?

31.What do you think about the person who took this survey before you: What are you? A reporter or something? Zz.

32.If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would you be: Erm, the one that gets the most money. Obviously.

33. Last movie you watched: Er, idk the title. Somekind of family with superpowers. :S

34. Last song you listened to : Lotsa them.

35. Last thing you bought: C2 drink. Yum :3

36. Last person you hugged: Eh,forgot.

37. Food: Sister’s homemade spaghetti.

38. Drinks: Brother’s tea.

39. Bottoms: Jeans, tracks, comfortable ones.

40. Flower: Bunga2 indah di taman syurga. PFFFFFTT.

41. Animal: A tame gorilla.

42. Colors: RED

43. Movie: Depends

44. Subjects: Science

HAVE YOU EVER...

([X] meaning yes [ ] meaning no)



45. [] fallen in love with someone

46. [] celebrated Halloween

47. [] had your heart broken

48. [X] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone

49. [X] wanted to smack someone upside the head

51. [] eaten a whole pizza

52. [X] tried to do something, but couldn't succeed

53. [X] did something I regret.

54. [X] broke a promise

55. [X] hid a secret

56. [X] pretended to be happy

57. [] met someone who changed your life

58. [X] pretended to be sick

59. [X] left the country

60. [X] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it

61. [X] cried over the silliest thing

62. [X] ran 5 miles

63. [] went to the beach with your bestfriend

64. [X] got into an argument with your friends

65. [X] hated someone

66. [X] stayed single for a whole year



CURRENTLY:



67. Eating: -

68. Drinking: -

69. Listening to: Tv.

70.Thinking about: actors’ voices from the tv.

71. Plans for today: Homeworks. Zz.

72. Waiting for: Weekends.



YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids: I’m FOURTEEN, sheesh.

74. Want to get married: InsyaAllah. Ceh.

75. Careers in mind: Engineer.



WHICH IS BETTER IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?:

76. Lips or eyes?: Eyes.

77. Shorter or taller? Taller.

78. Romantic or Spontaneous? Spontaneous 

79. Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms.

81. Hook-up or relationship?: FRIENDSHIP.

82. Looks or personality?: A portion from both.



HAVE YOU EVER:



83. Lost glasses/contacts: Y.

84. Snuck out of a house: N.

85. Held a gun/knife for self defense: N.

86.Had your heart broken: N.

87. Broken someone's heart: Y.

88. Been in love: N.

89. Cried when someone died?: N.



DO YOU BELIEVE IN:



90. Yourself: Sure.

91. Miracles: Yeap.

92. Love at first sight: Nehh.

93. Heaven: Sure do.

94. Santa Clause: No.



TRUTHFULLY:



97. Is there one person you want to be with right now?: N.

98. Do you know who your real friends are?: Y. 

99. Do you believe in God?: Y.

100. Would you change something in your life?: Y.

101. DO YOU LIKE COOKIES: IDC.

Undoubtable

Last July 2nd, there was this Larian 1 Malaysia thingy. Seeing the oppurtunity of going to school on a Saturday, my teachers decided to pile up Hari Koperasi and Hari Ko-kurikulum as well as the Larian altogether on that one day.

English Club decided to open up a stall; in which not more than a quarter of the members (me included), helped big time throwing ideas around, giving out modals and such. Unsursprisingly, it was also decided that Aina, Najwa and I, along with Hisyam and Farhana should have three freaking slots -we were to take turns- at the stall on the big day. The others were just there as bystanders to make sure a 'tick' was placed, marking their attendances so as to assure respectable Koko marks by the end of the year. Do know that their humming, buzzing noises, chatting and fooling around were certainly not very pleasant.

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Ok, maybe not at all pleasant.

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Now,

I know that backtalk is very bad, but whaddyaknow? Saturday came, and those bystanders humans who claimed to be 'responsible members' of the club were crowding the petit table, enblocking the whole stall once and for all. Claiming that they were to look after the stall, too. Truth be told, they were just plain modest and wanted to market their unrespectable faces while clutching a wad of bills to their friends and scoolmates. Pfft. -.-

I obviously left the group of mammals with their 'business'.

Okay, so the whole day lacked of fun. Except for the part where I played with Nadhirah's cool bubble balloon :-3.

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Anyway, I went to Mumtaz the other day. The woman really had the nerve to announce that we will be having six boring classes this month. Trolol.

Already in a sour mood as I was after having to hear that terrible news, the stewpeed mammal which I hate threw me a smug face when my group couldn't answer some kind of ridiculous question. Cow, OBVIOUSLY you could sit. For one thing; if you stand, people in the back wouldn't be able to see infront because of your size, and the next is that you got the superfreakingannoyinglyeasy question. Pukyou. Stupid cow. Take that, woman! Hah.

I am was annoyed.

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Woot, can't wait for school to start. I know I might be crazy to be enthusiastic about something like school, but there are humans like me, too. Except the fact that we are facing serious threat of extinction. Whaddo.

Ciao, mate.